Bland bitterness or is it the opposite of things. We are born and brought up with expectations from ourselves and our surroundings. You could say that they partially stem from our irrational cravings for things for the best there is for the unachievable perfection in us. It comes close at times and an outside glimpse of what e do not have or are able to replicate rendering us in a position of dissatisfaction. We seek perfect thoughts perfect feels perfect burst in everything however for this to bring the utmost joy it must be hidden kept aside of fear of shattering the slither of provoked satisfaction. However unless you have the will within to accept and keep grounded satisfaction is as unachievable as acceptance.

Fear of audible expression fuels me. It always had and will. Yet expression itself is a form of strength. Sharing is a form of pride. Then there is always lingering shyness. But, there is no reason for that. For acceptance was not the issue.

Hi, I actually feel OK.
Longing just a bit?
Maybe not, rather the opposite :)
Anyways, it's not bad. It's alright.